Have you ever wondered what it means to die to one’s self? When I was first saved I used to think why does the Pastor keep saying that? I mean really, if you think about it how can one die to one’s self? I know this is silly but this was going through my head at the time, that is physically impossible. You certainly would not be around to talk about the experience because you’d be dead! So just what was the Pastor talking about?
One of the benefits to being in a bible preaching church the Pastor explains his comments because he knows there are new eager believers hanging on his every word. Yes, I admit I was one of the new eager believers, well not so new now but none the less still eager to learn. This is how it was explained to me; repent of your old ways and receive Jesus in your heart and you will be a new creation in Christ or something close to that.
When I was reading Galatians the other day the following verses caught my attention:
Galatians 6:14-16 (NLT)
14 As for me, may I never boast about anything except the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ. Because of that cross, my interest in this world has been crucified, and the world’s interest in me has also died. 15 It doesn’t matter whether we have been circumcised or not. What counts is whether we have been transformed into a new creation. 16 May God’s peace and mercy be upon all who live by this principle; they are the new people of God.
Galatians 6:14 caught my special attention well, actually, the latter part of it did, “Because of that cross, my interest in this world has been crucified, and the world’s interest in me has also died.”
My life has changed drastically over the past five years. Externally, I have become single, I lost my job, I went on unemployment, I went back to school, I home school my son and now I am searching for a job. But all of that is circumstantial to what has changed on the inside; my heart has undergone a transformation. It is so hard to explain it in words, the closest I can come to explaining it is the deepest “yearning” I have ever had for anything. I believe that is what Pastor was speaking about when he said die to one’s self; get your mind off yourself. I can honestly say that my interest in this world has come to an end. Oh, I don’t mean I want to die tomorrow but what I’m trying to say is that my eyes are Heavenly bound now. That does not mean that I don’t see what’s going on around me because I do. It’s just that now I pray that God will use me to reach the lost for His glory and that I will not be so consumed with my wants and desires.
I have been praying for an unquenchable thirst for months/years and He has answered my prayer. My heart desires what His will is for my life. I find I hear the Lord so much clearer now and all I want to do is be about His business. My Father has called me to His business of Special Touch Ministry, Inc. and I am currently the Vice President to our local Special Touch chapter-REACH New England. It is so exciting to be used by Him and I can only imagine how Samuel felt when God called him to be about His business.
What business is the Father calling you to today?